Theme: I’m angry and I let it get too far. My sister now has permanent brain damage.
My sister visited and we were sitting in my bedroom. I felt a little irritated. I found myself trying to explain my irritation but no words formed–only sounds. I kept talking, but she showed no indication that she heard what I was saying. She picks up an object and throws it at me. It’s soft, so it doesn’t hurt. I throw it back at her.
She continues to throw random objects at me but eventually, ends up picking up a phone and throwing it towards my head. That’ll hurt if I let it hit me. I dodge it and catch it with my right hand. For some reason, I am very angry now. Letting my anger get the best of me, I draw my arm back and aim at her head before I throw the phone. It collides with her head with a loud “thud”.
Her eyes are wide–in shock. Then, her eyes are just wide and expressionless. She is looking in my direction, but it doesn’t look like she is looking at me. She crawls/slides off the bed slowly. Then, she stands up hunched over a little bit. She goes to leave my room. At the door, her head twitches to the side sharply and she turns to look at me with those unseeing eyes, one last time, before exiting.
The next day, I make an effort to talk to her. Sometimes, her words would make sense. Sometimes, they didn’t. She was always hunched over, twitching every now and then.
I figured that it had to do with the night prior. I had given her brain damage and now, she is mentally disabled. This was my doing. This was my new reality.
Maybe, I’m scared that I’ll end up hurting someone close to me. Maybe it’ll be something big and I won’t realize it until if causes irreparable damage. Then, it’ll be too late. It’ll be something I’ll end up regretting for the rest of my life. No, I don’t want that. This is a regret that can be avoided. Maybe, this dream is telling me to be more mindful and considerate of others.